The World Is On Fire And Everything Sucks

Just... the title

I have recently realised I probably have OCD, and am looking into getting that diagnosed. One of the things that I do that someone pointed out to me is an OCD thing is this idea that I am somehow responsible for all of the problems in the world and I have some kind of obligation to fix it all.

Like, yeah, everyone should absolutely be trying to make the world a better place and fight against injustices and all that, but what if I was somehow able to wave a magic wand and fix it all, myself, and I just needed to find the right words or make the right piece of art, or do the right thing, that would somehow end all suffering. When I was a kid I decided that I would somehow take on all of the suffering of the world ever, to stop other people from feeling pain, and I can't help but look back at that kid now and be like my darling little potato, that is not even remotely sensible or healthy and I'm sorry we thought we had that kind of responsibility.

I wish a single piece of art or a single statement would be what it takes to magic away all of the suffering in the entire world. I wish there could be one thing that if you say it to all the people in power, they'll somehow have a sudden burst of empathy and compassion for everybody that will spur them onto make revolutionary world changes.

I read a thing about Louis Thereoux Manosphere documentary that came out recently, it was a snippet of an interview with one of the guys, I forgot his name. Theroux asked him why he didn't just be a good person and help people achieve the best version of themselves, and the guys response was that being a good person wasn't what made him successful, and he's living for himself not for others.

And I just DON'T UNDERSTAND THAT???

I'm living for myself too, but I'm doing that by wanting to create art for people and love people and help people be the best versions of themself and be the best version of *my*self. I know that capitalism conditions everybody to be selfish assholes and fight each other to be Best There Ever Was, but I dunno isn't that obviously bad. Like please stop being a dick, actually.

Anyway, that's the end of that ramble. I'm gonna go cuddle my cat and pretend nothing else exists.